Tuesday, April 18

Memoirs of a Horder

And so it’s back to work after 4 glorious days of freedom and jeans wearing. Happiness to me is slipping into something more comfortable after work is finished…

It’s so hard to get back into sensible mode after so long letting it all hang out. Sometimes I think I have forgotten how to add up and subtract and I get myself into a panic until I realise that I could never do those things, I always used a calculator for that So it’s all good again.

Since we got our offer on the house last week, I haven’t exactly allowed myself to get excited about the prospect that life is going to change in so many ways and all the changes are going to be massive. For a start we’re basically starting again - save a few personal effects, the lot is being given away or thrown away. We will literally have nothing again!

Then there’s leaving my family, the wonderful Wondy Mum and my brother, who I’ve just started to get to know and more importantly, get to like. My friends – I know you can make them anywhere and I’ve always been good at collecting them – but I like the ones I’ve got now!

I have a fear that I will end up somewhere in the back of beyond with no one for company but Rocker. This is not a problem as luckily I like him as well as love him, but total isolation scares the beejesus out of me - I like people.

It’s going to be such a huge change – getting rid of everything, travelling, settling in a new country, finding myself. Sometimes I do an internal Ostrich and bury my thoughts in the sand, because it’s easier that way. Most of the time I don’t even have to try too hard, as my mind is so exhausted anyway, but this time it’s really happening and I must keep up.

I have decided to chuck nearly everything. All my shoes, give most of my handbags away, throw away old make-up. Donate some of my books to people who will look after them. Photos, old letters and my precious DVD collection are all that will remain.

I am so looking forward to the new streamlined Wondy!

1 comment:

Stacy The Peanut Queen said...

I am so happy for you! You're doing something I've often dreamed of doing but never had the balls to do (yet!!!)

And I know what you mean about moving and "no one for company" but Rocker....I feel the same way about The PK. He would love to move to Idaho or Montana (me, I'd rather move to the Keys or Costa Rica) but either way...he'd be the ONLY person I'd know! And he makes friends so much more easily than I do...believe it or not, I'm actually quite shy!

Ah well, if I ever ever got the opportunity to move, I;d still do it!!! :)