Ch-ch-changes

Yesterday our friend Tara arrived from the Caribbean (or rather, she arrived from Lowestoft by way of the Caribbean and many other places). She and a friend, Paul, a Canadian, have just delivered a boat here in the UK. She showed me some of her photographs from the trip and has an amazing eye for detail, which is just as well considering she'd love to take photographs as a profession, specialising in underwater shots.

I'll see if I can get some to share with you. She actually has a blog but has neglected it for a long time so I might pester her into posting some of her recent shots, some are brilliant.

It really busts my chops not having a computer, I might not do much but I do like to post and write a bit and read up on my favourite pages. Not having one is like having a best friend I can't see. Grr.

Tara has bought her laptop though so (fingers crossed) we might be able to hook that up to the WWW - which would at least mean internet access for the next few days. Not sure how long she is going to stay but probably the next week or so - and she can cut my hair for me, which is nice.

In other news, my brother came to see me Sunday and was a ray of sunshine as always (if the ray of sunshine had been dragged through a hedge way backwards, stamped on repeatedly, squeezed through a mangle and then thrown up by the cat). Hangover, Bro? We watched Ong-bak and it was a huge hit even with Rocker who LOVED it. And he's usually so negatory about my beloved martial arts/kung-fu movies. There is hope for him yet.

I wonder how much more of this waiting around for the house to be sold malarkey I can actually take? While Rocker is stressed to within an inch of his life, I've been trying to hold it together with my hokey 'if it's mean to be' baloney - which I do actually believe in - but it gets old quick when everything seems to be transpiring against us.

Somehow I feel my life is on hold until we get some concrete information on where we are going. I so want to travel but I also want to look to the more important things in my life, like creativity, education, freedom - I never ever want to feel trapped again like I do now. It's horrific. I want to be the girl who says yes to every experience, not the girl who says no, I'm sorry I can't. Changes are afoot my friends.